he say sweet words to me :)

after a long time i have been thinking about this ,at last ,a final decision had been made.huh ! glad .the result is i will study at samura and having a new atmosphere ,new friends of laughing and sad in my new school .it  located a stone throw away and not that far from my house ,then it will not so complicated with my incapable condition .i thought of take a leave for 2 weeks more but then the teachers said that i need to school ASAP so that i wont miss the silibus .plus ,after thinking in deep ,i kind of sad.i wont be able to hang up with my besties ,i will be far away from my cellphone,rarely get a chance to wake up early and missed my mom cooking.i dont know whether i can survive and handle the culture shocked nicely.haha.im a big girl .so ,yaa ,just go on .gonna miss aten and besties lain ,sys yana ,and others . :)
    
    anyway ,back to the topic , just now ,my brother said a sweet word to me that had touched my liver so do my pancreas.hee. he said ,if there anybody that try to harm or bully me ,report to him .he'l know what to do .that 'pembuli' should feel the same way as he/she did to me.or in malay ,kalau ada orang buli adeq ,jangan lupa beritahu abg .jangan pendam .abang tawu laa ape na buat.habis dia nanti . lalu pantas menjawab ,anak orang bang .dah tu  ,dia buli ko ,ko bukan anak orang ? me :gulp .touching for a while.i know he wont let me go ,but this is my choice.sorry .btw ,i love you laa insan bergelar abang <3

NAME:nuramirah selamat . CLASS:4azam. DORM :puj4

he said,he will replace my position as adeq .haha

i cant .

i cant stop missing you :(


*before i read her bloggies ,18 dec.i save it in draft cause last night i had some problems with browser .i cant make to publish it .i want to publish it today .but i think it no longer meaningful . .


dear F ,ever since we fought ,its been a long time for me doesn't meet you. everyday il stalk your bloggies so do your facebook to see what are you up to .dear ,i damn fuckin missin you . just now i make my bed ,i clean the dusty shelves ,then i found our old moments .i found your card raya ,your name tag ,our picture .i miss all the moments .i wish i can turn back the times,*its all people dreams :) so that i wont do somtin that make you hate me .i heard some bad news,i wish i can be with you that time to back up you .but ,yaa.for sure you dont need me ,dear please come back to me.i wont hoping for us to be so close ,but i just want you to befriends with me .but i glad to hear your voice .im the one who asked jannah to call you.i want to hear your voice ,i want to know whether u had a good time .for sure,you are having good time .but i was too afraid to talk with you .i miss youu .imiss youu .so much ..


err ~ i cant write anymore .im lost .im crying .bee & air ,i need your shoulder to hold my tears from fallin down to earth --'


*after i had read her bloggies and her text that she sent to me through the fb inbox .


shes no longer wanna befriends with me .its hurt .i cant stop crying .yess.i cant .totally cant .its hard to know that i lost her forever .but ,i had promise to myself ,i wont stop hoping .i WONT .i never thought that she will left me dumped alone .i really want to move from smkpb ,there is no other reason for me to stay .i cant face her by this way .i dont want to .i want to leave the school with a good moments with her .not with this fought .il pray that il be accept to study at sms .i want to move .il be damn frustrated if il be rejected .ya allah ,please give me a chance to move .il be lost if i stay.please do accept my prayers .amin .

*you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down. i learn this now ,il improve if i get a chance to move .really hope all my effort will worth it .