ego .

i wanna change ! ;) insya-allah ;)

i used to be 'ego .i mean im ego .i mean i still being ego person .hee .like seriously i know that's suck .and i know i have to stop on being like that ,but ,i just cant . and guess what ,i forgot the reason that made me like this .maybe people surround me .or maybe me and myself kott .after all ,im the one who chosen to be like this till now .sometimes ,being ego brings a benefit for me ,but most of the time it kills me .deep inside my heart .and left a big scar on my heart till it cant be cure for any longer.i do realize that it does not bring any good things for me cause it just make us keep on waiting .and i hate that .so ,i decided to change .luckily ,someone came and courage me to do that .he just came right on time .and i love that .hee .slowly ,i put aside my ego and try to be a better person .maybe ;) hee .im not changing about 360 deg cause i know that it wont last .so ,i just do it slowly .and take my time .as an example ,i text him first  .hee.i never done it before to other man so hes lucky aite .next ,i apologize to my friend even it wasnt my fault.its hard actually .but i love our friendship .i dont want it to over like that just because both of us dont want to surrender .i made it .kann ! ;) even tak laa besar mana kann ,tapi i had tried .act the reason i write about egos is just now ,clo text me and said ,why must always her who text me first .why not me ?then i replied ,that's because im kind of phobia .im afraid people wont reply my text and then im sad for no reason .and il make that as the reason for me to keep blaming on people .its mean ,kumpul berapa banyak kali ta reply and burst masa tengah marah .hihi ,thats so me .i love to keep my feelings alone .its hard for me to share .she's not the first person who asked me ,dah tak terkira but then i dont know what to do .i just let it to be cure by itself .


p/s :penat tunggu n text ,tp tu laa ego .tana tunjuk yang tengah tunggu die ,so kalau die text ,il jump joyously kot .haha. same goes to kak yana ,cda ,ca ,clo and others .im sorry guys .il try to change slowly ;)