i cant .

i cant stop missing you :(


*before i read her bloggies ,18 dec.i save it in draft cause last night i had some problems with browser .i cant make to publish it .i want to publish it today .but i think it no longer meaningful . .


dear F ,ever since we fought ,its been a long time for me doesn't meet you. everyday il stalk your bloggies so do your facebook to see what are you up to .dear ,i damn fuckin missin you . just now i make my bed ,i clean the dusty shelves ,then i found our old moments .i found your card raya ,your name tag ,our picture .i miss all the moments .i wish i can turn back the times,*its all people dreams :) so that i wont do somtin that make you hate me .i heard some bad news,i wish i can be with you that time to back up you .but ,yaa.for sure you dont need me ,dear please come back to me.i wont hoping for us to be so close ,but i just want you to befriends with me .but i glad to hear your voice .im the one who asked jannah to call you.i want to hear your voice ,i want to know whether u had a good time .for sure,you are having good time .but i was too afraid to talk with you .i miss youu .imiss youu .so much ..


err ~ i cant write anymore .im lost .im crying .bee & air ,i need your shoulder to hold my tears from fallin down to earth --'


*after i had read her bloggies and her text that she sent to me through the fb inbox .


shes no longer wanna befriends with me .its hurt .i cant stop crying .yess.i cant .totally cant .its hard to know that i lost her forever .but ,i had promise to myself ,i wont stop hoping .i WONT .i never thought that she will left me dumped alone .i really want to move from smkpb ,there is no other reason for me to stay .i cant face her by this way .i dont want to .i want to leave the school with a good moments with her .not with this fought .il pray that il be accept to study at sms .i want to move .il be damn frustrated if il be rejected .ya allah ,please give me a chance to move .il be lost if i stay.please do accept my prayers .amin .

*you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down. i learn this now ,il improve if i get a chance to move .really hope all my effort will worth it .